Posts Tagged ‘grief’

Pain

PAIN

 

Pain is a sea with no bed. You can plumb the depths of it to find it goes deeper still. What is the point of pain?  know it has one.

Pain FOR those who have gone and left their footprints on your soul. Pain FROM those present who stomp upon your spirit. Pain BY what YOU put YOURSELF through.

Pain. When tears bring no relief, only affirm that your heart is breaking.

Pain. When talking only reminds you of the pain.

Pain. When the silence makes it more intense.

When you feel you cannot cope, what is your solution?

Pain can be such a pain.

 

Cat In Pain... or is it indigestion? :(

Cat In Pain… or is it indigestion? 😦

 

Your thoughts

Yours Truly

Zishaan ‘ZuZu’ Shafi

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Today is the second year anniversary of the greatest loss in my life. Losing my Dad. Every day since has been hard. Every day is an anniversary. Wanted to post this to remember him openly and help relieve some of what is in my heart and mind.

 

Heartbreak

Beloved heartbreaker

 

Beloved heartbreaker

I stifle my sobs of anguish

As you tear through the flesh of my chest

To reach my beating heart

Heartbreaker you are killing me.

 

But I am glad for the pain

If it means I get to see your face again

 

Heartbreaker you have bested me

It is a defeat I boast of gladly

O Beloved Heartbreaker

Who appears when I sleep

Haunting my swim through midnight pools

Of dreams.

 

You drag me down

To the darkest places

I plunge the very depths of misery

My tears filling the seas

Leading them to overflow

 

Beloved Heartbreaker

Don’t you know

How much you hurt me

Beloved Heartbreaker

Don’t you know

This is how I want it to be

 

-Zishaan ‘ZuZu’ Shafi

Dear Departing Love

 

Dearest departing traveller don’t forget me. By God don’t go for too long, parting for but a moment is hard. I feel anguish when you blink and we are no longer meeting eyes, so with this departure, how can you imagine I am to survive.

There is chaos and sadness today, my beloved has left, leaving me bereft. There cannot be any joy. With every second I pray for your return, kindred, you do not know how my heart yearns. Don’t think I didn’t ask, the world and the universe, to make you stay, you didn’t heed what they had to say.

I know it was not a choice, and one day, together, we will rejoice. Just know until I see you again, I will not turn my gaze from the horizon, as I watch you walking away. As you do my heart will sob, my tears are a testament to that.

Dear Departed if you could but see, what your departure has done to me.

Yours Truly

Zishaan ‘ZuZu’ Shafi

Tearflakes

Posted: August 18, 2011 in Poetry
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My father passed away November 30th 2010.  I was at work.  I was busy treating a patient. Once I had finished, I saw a bunch of missed calls and texts, one which said ‘Dad is dead’.

I informed my colleagues, spoke to a sibling, packed my workbag and walked to the train station so I could make my way home.

As I was walking, all of a sudden it began to snow. That is the one fact I remember most about that day.

I see the snow as something different now.

 

Tearflakes

 

Oh dark brooding sky
Who has broken your heart
That you cry so hard?

Sending tears from your lofty heights
Know that I feel the same
We both suffer from 
A kind of pain

Now your teardrops turn to snowflakes
Has your heart begun to turn to ice?

Turned cold by your sadness

Is that what awaits me?

Right now the tears are warm
Given heat by my blazing heart
Which consumes me

I look forward to this fiery furnace of flesh being tamed
So that my youthful ache

Can metamorphosise into a more melancholy state

Then I too will cry icy tearflakes

 

 

Yours Truly

Zishaan ‘ZuZu’ Shafi